since u strt working, we are far apart... since u strt working, we are always arguing... since u strt working, u r always finding my fault....

dulu tk keje, tkde cam gni... nk fun la, dun want to think of marriages la.... im suffocating rite nw.... y suddenly? sigh.... realli tired.... i ask u to stop working bt u dun want.... nw, every nite b4 i go to sleep, i have been praying hard, god, let smtng happen at her workplace till she stop.... its for her own good.... let her see that money is for the weak..... im willing to pay ur ezlink if u want.... i dun mind at all coz i noe my responsibilities....

i seriously dun feel the happiness anymore.... i gt no one to talk to anymore, no one to see my feelings.... i miss those times....

those times we used to go cw to watch movies after sch, go movies, go ur house.... hahaha... bt nw, nt even one.... i think if things dun change, might as well i start my old ways.... rite? flirting wif gerls, txt msg-ing them.... i dun want to do that coz i noe u r imprt to me.... i still love u and seriously want u to stop working.... i hope we can get that understanding..... i realli hope.....

fyi, u r realli imprt to me.... igt tk dulu, we sit under the block n talk our problems until u cry? n u land in my arms..... bt i noe, that was history... it wont happen again rite? why fun? so u are telling me its nt fun wif me anymore? my parents nw kept asking whats wif us? why am i always alone nw in my rm smtimes my eyes will be red.... i just say ntg.... u think i like to argue wif u? i realli miss u.... please...... lets come to an understanding.....

im back..... hehe..... msg-ing nadiah as i type tis....

as u all know, life has been bad... real bad.... i have tried calming things down bt i tink i will stop it.... it wont work..... what is it that u want? i gave u space n u still complain.... to be truthful, ever since that thing came into our life, everything changes.... i mean everything.... does she know that i have been thinking about her everyday, everytime? even soccer just nw, my mind was on her n on my match.... she dun even know that.....

i have made up my mind.... i will let u be alone... sry if i dun reply to ur msg-es n all.... i know thats what u wanted..... i dunno if i should follow u on mon.... i really dont... if i know im a "hazard" to ur life since last time, i could have left u long, long time ago..... i dun want to do wat i did to my ex's, avoiding them everytime until we break up....

i will be honest.... i dun want a break up bt if u keep pushing me to it, i guess im left with 1 choice... to let u go.... bt i promise that as long as i can sabar, i will....

This few weeks have been a tough one for me... not that i want to complain but i regret everything... Are we going to end soon? I tink yes.... tis few days, i have been looking at all our past photos n memories n it made me sad... sad because i miss those times.... i guess its partly over already....

god... is money everything to a human? or happiness? i guess the answer for nw is money..... i have given up everything.... everything change after the stupid, fucking work..... i dun even feel like celebrating our monthsary anymore.... neither do i even wanna meet her.... if money is damn imprt den happiness, den just sacrifice our relationship.... is it wrong for me to say that u dun even give a damn thing about us since u strt the stupid, pathetic job? everytime, u reply my msges are all one word msges....

god.... if i can complain to u, i think it will be better.... i just need a gerl who cares about me nw, willing to listen to my stupid, lame jokes just like last time.... i wont hide the fact that tears are rolling down as i type all tis... u wanna say im hook up to my soccer? bt at least i still spend time with u and txt u sincerely....

why people are willing to sacrifice a 1 year of relationship just because of money? come on la... money can find later... dun be pathetic.... i can give u money if u ask....

if u are reading tis, u should noe well hw im feeling rite nw.... im jealous looking at other couples, happy tgt..... sigh!

lastly..... 1 birthday wish.... hope u will realise soon and stop ur pathetic work.... thats how to make me happy...... you dun deserve that kind of work..... not now...

Bloggie... i dunno why i feel so down and sad suddenly...... maybe its because of what i think just now..... kept thinking that we will be further and further apart and there is no point to continue further if this continues...... i noe misunderstandings occurs but surely, it doesnt come everyday right? whats the point of me showing care and concern when the other party reply back by asking me to shut up and mind my own business... yes... i kept quiet all these while but in my heart........................... only god knows.... all those shouting and 'kutukan' kept playing in my mind almost everyday.... i know i can nvr be the best... and a lot of times i force myself to just say that word..... just find someone who u think can be better.... although it hurts for me, it may be the best for u..... everyday, i go out of my house praying that that day will be happy for us... but it always turns out the other way..... sigh.... god, whats should i do?